Friday, December 2, 2016


At Last



a Flu, a bronchitis 
and the body and mind gets affected.

For weeks on end no energy.
And there is no one who is bothered 
by the lack of life force.

There is simply what is.
  
Just as breaking 3 bones in the foot 10 months ago was never experienced as a problem.

Resistance to what is is increasingly evaporating.
And the welcoming of whatever wants to show itself 
allows an ever deeper sinking in and as Presence.


It is interesting to see the residues 
of contractions of the past 
( which can be viewed as resistance to what was
being tickle out of their hiding places, 


Finally allowed to release the charge.
Allowed to relax the tensions in the guts, 
and the holding of unexamined beliefs.


Finally it can be felt.
Finally it can let go.

So instead of the habitual response to resist the feelings
of discomfort, sadness or pain,
(which are after all only sensations felt in different parts of the torso in varying  degrees of intensity
to rejoice as Love and Presence take their rightful place again.

Now becoming ever more Now
As attention is no longer captured by past stories, 
but free to be with and as whatever
at this moment.










Monday, October 10, 2016


Sweet and Fierce Kisses



Our many layered manifestation,
that through which we perceive the world/ourselves,

( note that the world and ourselves are not 
two separate things, it is one and the same substance
although perceived as different from each other.
Much as we might see one tree but notice the difference between branches and leaves, flowers and bark )

is more or less ready to perceive the non separate nature of existence.

Much depends on how we came into this world.
What kind of package, 
bagage, 
genes, 
culture, 
upbringing.

Much depends on what Life has in store for us.
The impulses motivating us.
Which happenings, accidents, encounters in our lives 
are directing us.

If we are lucky a wish to know takes hold of our lives.
A need to inquire as to why and how we are here.
What is the meaning of all this?

Questioning the so called solid facts of life
the expectations of society, family.

If we are lucky there is still room for the voice of
the unknown beckoning us home.

In this process of discovering and inquiry
many of the filters screening the direct perception 
may leave us.  

Clarity is a powerful means to dissolve the veils
standing between what we are 
and what we think we are.

An awakening experience e.g. can reveal with utmost clarity
that we are not limited by the person we think we are.
We are not separate.
We are a perceiving capacity.
Direct and open.

And when the awakening experience has passed,
we are left to unwind, and unveil 
the trail of identifications laid down in our
mind and body.
Indentations of our passage through this world.

We are asked to ferret out all the hiding places 
of the separate self.
And notice the ways again and again where
identification want to take up station somewhere.


When through Grace the penny drops irrevocably 
we are knowingly the unknowable, unfindable 
always presence of awareness

Then there will be no more room for 
loosing it, or having it.
The identification with the person 
who is suppose to have it or lost it 
has disappeared.

And then still the unraveling continues.
Deeper down in the substance of our matter.
The subconscious, pre-verbal, past lives,
all that wants to be unwound.

Making more room for clarity
for This to love Itself more nakedly.


And still all that shows itself is This.
Sweet and fierce kisses of
the One substance.
Kissing Itself. 


A wonderful thing is that all the images and expectations
of how spirituality, awakening, realization looks like 
disappear.  

One is whatever is present.




 

 

Sunday, September 25, 2016


A Kingdom for a horse


Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall,
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king's horses and all the king's men
Couldn't put Humpty together again.
  

We would trade anything 
not to loose the sense that we are a person


It is too scary...
Because then there is nothing to hold on to.
Nothing to define what we are.


If through Grace letting go happens
it does not follow that there is no more sense of identity.

But then there is identification with whatever appears.  

This and This and This as well, 
in fact Everything.

This is where the identification is.
Everything.

Not in a: 
'whenever you are sweet you are welcome to stay
kind of way.

No everything:
emotions
appearances
thoughts
sense perceptions
discernment
actions

An all inclusive of all that appears.

The hurricanes and the sunsets.


Everything is the substance of what we are.
Life.

The Kingdom is us and ours already  

No need for a horse.

Unless we enjoy the ride of course.




Wednesday, September 7, 2016